That is absolutely something that I NEVER want to do again. Weeks 5-11 of this pregnancy were pure LIVING HELL. At week 5, I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum. I don’t even know how to describe the feeling to people who have never experienced it (like my husband who just could not understand how I was feeling). It is kind of like when you were in college and you went out that one night and got SO drunk that you woke up the next day and could not move without puking your brains out. You swore that was it and you would NEVER drink again for the rest of your life because you never want to feel like that again. Well, that is how I felt for 7 straight weeks, all day, every day. Even with the highest dose of medication they could prescribe me, it didn’t even touch it. I would carry a cup around with me every step I took in my house and used it almost every day because I could not make it to the bathroom in time. I refrained from watching TV for about 2 weeks because I was jealous of all the people that were “healthy” ( I know it sounds crazy but I was so depressed and miserable, little things would set me off).
Weeks 5-7, I somehow toughed it out and came to work (even though I would come late and leave early almost every day). I spent most of the time laying on the “sick” cot that we have in our library and running to the bathroom to puke at least every hour. Finally at week 8, I knew I could not physically make it any more so I started the FMLA paperwork and took the next 4 weeks off work. I left my house 2 times in those 4 weeks and that was only because I HAD to go to the doctor, or I never would have left. I showered MAYBE once a week… I had zero energy and even just taking a shower was a huge task and I would vomit every time I did. I laid in bed for 5 days straight once, only getting up to vomit or go to the bathroom. It was completely depressing and exhausting. I ended up losing a total of 25 pounds, and I was already slightly underweight when I became pregnant.
I finally felt good enough to come back to work last Tuesday and Wednesday, then we had the long holiday weekend so that was a nice way to ease back into it. This week I am feeling pretty good, I still take 2 Zofran pills a day and am not able to eat a ton BUT I am back to solid foods again and not just popsicles! Woo hoo! I have gained 10 pounds back in the past 2 weeks which is awesome because I was sickly skinny and a lot of people were scared for me and my babies. My biggest issue now is that the Zofran pills cause major constipation, so if I am not nauseous, I am backed up and that gives me a stomach ache. I started taking a Senokot pill every day along with the Zofran and it helps a little bit, but usually causes some cramping. There really is no winning at this point! I am just thankful that things are finally getting easier and I am starting to get back to being myself again! I can deal with a little constipation and nausea, I know it could be a (and was) way worse!
As of tomorrow, I am 13 weeks! I have an ultrasound tomorrow at 11:30 and I can not WAIT to see my babies! I have not had an ultrasound since week 8 so they are going to look a lot different! I started going to a new OBGYN since the one I have gone to for years is 20 minutes across town and I figured I will be going at least 2 times a month this winter, I wanted something much closer. So I asked my good friend who is a NNP at the hospital that I will be delivering at who I should go to and she gave me some great options. I met with one and the minute I started talking to her, I knew she was the one! She is so sweet, empathetic, and actually listens and answers any of my concerns or questions. AND the best part is she is a mom of twins so she completely understands first hand what I will be and am going through! She was already giving me advice on support groups and breast feeding techniques at our first visit.
I am so happy to see all of my friends here are so healthy and happy and SO MANY pregnancies!! I tried to follow along while I was sick but, again, I would get frustrated and feel alone because I was the only one going through hell and every one else was working, playing, EATING and enjoying being pregnant! I have wanted to be pregnant for so long, I am so happy that I am now able to finally enjoy it and embrace the changes! I can’t wait to finally start showing and have a belly!
It feels good to be back 🙂